Someday I will be big enough so you can't hit me

being bullied isn't easy.

being bullied feels like the end of the world.

and for some of us it is.

and It's a shame.

but know that you are not alone. 

they bully you because you are better than them. people get scared

so next time, walk taller. 

and bring them down.

how? by being successful, show them that what they did to you only made you stronger.

Someday, I'll be, living in a big old city,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean.
Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me,
And all you're ever gonna be is mean. - Taylor Swift

Don't hide yourself in regret, 
Just love yourself and you're set 
I'm on the right track, baby 
I was born this way  - Lady Gaga

Go on and try to tear me down
I'll be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper - Demi Lovato

Every step I'm taking , 

every move I make feels ,

 lost with no direction ,

 my faith is shaking , 

but I , I gotta keep trying . 

Gotta keep my head held high .

 There's always gonna be another mountain ,

 I'm always gonna wanna make it move . 

There's always gona be an uphill battle ,

 sometimes I'm gonna have to lose . 

Ain't about how fast I get there ,

 ain't about what's waiting on the other side . 

It's the climb - Miley Cyrus

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July - Katy Perry

What doesn't kill you makes you strongerStand a little tallerDoesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm aloneWhat doesn't kill you makes you fighterFootsteps even lighterDoesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone - Kelly Clarkson

gnight xoxo Lihini

books my english teacher sugested

RUIZ ZAFÓN, CARLOS:SHADOW OF THE WIND ROBERTS, GREGORY DAVID:SHANTARAM MARTEL, YANN:LIFE OF PI LEE, HARPER:TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD JONASSON, JONAS:THE HUNDRED-YEAR-OLD MAN ADAMS, DOUGLAS:LIFE, THE UNIVERSE & EVERYTHING GAIMAN, NEIL:NEVERWHERE

xoxo Lihini

Live Chat with Kim Harrison

the author of The Hollows, Kim Harrison, is having a livechat on Goodreads on 30th January
I haven't read any of her books myself, but her books had pretty good point's on goodread and a lot of people had read her books so maybe i should check her out?
click HERE go get to the live chat

xoxo Lihini

hello fellas!

hello!
i have been cleaning all day, seriously, all day, but im in a strangely happy mood. huh.
so i was thinking... do you guys wan't a giveaway here on the blog? i could probably come up with something if there is a request :)

xoxo Lihini

Freeze.

Let's freeze this moment.
this exact same moment.

I am so scared.
on my 16th birthday i cried. i cried because i didn't wan't to grow up. I am so scared of growing up that it hurts.
I am turning 17 in 3 months and 8 days. Im not ready. not ready at all.
We all hurry off here in life to get to adulthood. we dream about the cars, perfect house, perfect job, family, etc.
But we are so ignorant. that is not life. that is not the life of a adult at all.
what we don't think about are our future problems.
the heart break/break's we will go through
the economy problem's
the feeling of loneliness and that we are lost
breaking childhood bonds
all the stress of the future
familyproblems
etc.
Im not ready for that, i never have been and i never will be either. ever.
I wan't to be young forever.
Lihini

Glee is over, what do i do now with my life?

life sucks atm. and don't judge me, i know its 03:00 am.
that last episode of Glee (yes, for me it was the last, Glee will never be the same without them all in the same place) killed it on a emotionally raw level, omg i loved it so much, so so so so much, words can not even describe the pain im feeling right now, which´h i know it's so stupid, but they were my friends. and i miss them so so so so much.
hehe im crying. again.
Rachel, Noah, Finn, Quinn, Santana, Britanny, Tina, Kurt, Blaine, Mercedes, Ardy, Will and everybody else.
this blogpost, the 196th blogpost is for you.
Thank you, and i love you.

forever and always, xoxo Lihini

TAG: Life Goals

Life Goals. with a big G.

I was inspired to write about this subject after a glee episode and after watching a youtube clip about goals. I am afraid of believing. I am scared that my dreams are too big and i will at the end of the day have no house,  no money, no lifestyle, no nothing.
That's why i don't dream. because im to scared.
And that is so wrong.

Goals are what makes us motivated here in life. it helps us get up in the morning, because we have a goal to work toward so we will have to go up and get things done to get to that goal. how big or small that goal is you have to start with waking up. and im not just talking about waking up from your sleep, Im talking about waking up from your dream. don't get me wrong, you have to dream big, but in our dream we don't paint up all the things that can go wrong. that's why we have to wake up first and set up the tough goals - how to get there.
Because no matter what you wan't to do in life, you got to fight for it. you might break down, you might have to stay up the whole night one day, or even sacrificing some things in your life, but if that goal is everything for you, you have to be prepared for that.

People will always bring you down, say that no you can't become a lawyer you are gullible, or you will never become a star on Broadway, but that should only motivate you to fight back even harder and show them, yes i can do this.
you will get lost at the way, ask yourself 'where am I?' and that is what your past and your loved ones there for. to show you where you started off, and where you are today. how far you have come to your goal.
Never settle for less. ever. if you have a goal be ready to fight for it. Let's say you wan't to learn how to make cupcakes. when you have mastered making muffins you might wan't to quit, because muffins are tasty right? But if you have mastered to make muffins, what is standing in your way to learn how to make cupcakes?

I am so scared of dreaming that it hurts.
My biggest dream here in life is to become a singer. an artist. a creator. I love singing so so much that it hurts. and dancing. when i sing and dance, nothing can bring me down.
So what is holding me back you might ask yourself, i just gave you guys a lesson in chasing after your dreams , why can't i do the same?
I have a slight more or less difficulty speaking because of my mouth-structure. no matter how hard i try there are just some letters that we use on a daily basic that i will never be able to pronounce correctly.
when i tell people this im fast with saying "but i'ts okay, im used to it." but its not okay. not at all. Im thinking about a surgery to fix my problem, but the thing is that i have already had 3 operations for that case. but im not giving up you know. if i need a miracle im going up to heaven and im going to knock down God's doors until he gives me a miracle.
Like i said before i am super scared. because I might never be good enough how hard I try. but Im never going to sit back and do nothing. because at the end of the day, we might not always succeed, but then at least you know that you have tried.
what Im trying to say is that we all don't have the same possibility, some are luckier than others. like if i was Beyoncés daughter i could just use some autotune and people would buy my CD's, u get my point. the rest of us just have to try harder. and sometimes, we have to fight and wait for a miracle. because miracles do happen.
and FIY i don't believe in god. but i will save that for another day.
set a goal and ask yourself. how far are you ready to go?

never be afraid of dreaming

xoxo Lihini

books im looking forward to read this year 2013

Cursed
By: Jennifer L. Armentrout
This is not a new book for this year, came out last year in September, but i didn't get a chance to read this one so i'm kind of thrilled to read this one this year. i loved a lux novel by Jennifer, but hated her Convenant novel. i only read the first book but it was a direct copy of the Vampire diaries

Clockwork Princess (the Infernal Devices #3)

By: Cassandra Clare
Cassandra is an artist when it comes to writing. She is so good with fight scenes, makes them very alive which very very few authors can pull off, so i'm very expectant about this one. 

the Indigo Spell (bloodlines #3)
By Richelle Mead
this is a follow up series of Vampire Academy, a series that I loved, FYI, so i was thrilled to know about this follow up novel. this is the third book, and the series is just getting better every time!

Goddess (Starcrossed #3)
By: Josephine Angelini
 I really liked the second book in this series, so i can not wait until Goddess comes out!









xoxo Lihini

TAG: Confidence

I think i just heard a bomb.
or maybe it was just some firework. anyway

today i wan't to talk about confidence. or more the lack of confidence.
Im a teenage girl. with teenage problems.
growing up wasn't and is still not always a dance. I make choices, I do mistakes, i get laughed at, i get hate, people call me names, etc. and I know for a fact that im not the only one out there. there are millions of other people going through what i just named on a daily basic. It's a part of our society. always, there, always will, always have. And it brings us down. in one way or another.
When i was younger i got bullied. I was being bullied because i was nice to other people, because I had nice clothes, because i looked differently and because i was weak. people saw me as a target.
After that, and my parents divorce i built up a shell around me. to protect me. i thought relationships with others was just a temporary thing. i looked down at myself, just because other people did. i started to think of myself as a joke. because people had brought me down too many times. I started to agree with what those kids were telling me.
and my confidence was long gone to be there and save myself from myself.
but one day i thought to myself. to hell with this.
i had been stomped, laughed, spit, kicked on for to long. i was not going to take it anymore. I deserved so much better. and i was tired of it all.
and i began with me.
i started in another class. they were so much better than my previous class, and they put a smile on my face now and then.
I changed my attitude. I started doing things i love, such as dancing, painting, and the best part, being politically involved. i started doing this i was actually good at. and i loved every bit of it. I gained confidence from that. i still up to this day don't really know how, but i did. I started getting some new friends, they thought i was fun to hang out with, and my last year at that school was actually pretty funny. of course i was still that 8 year old weak girl inside that could be brought down by just one single word but i didn't show it. I faked confidence until i made it.
easier said than done, I had to work very very hard.
opening up to other people helped. at first i opened up to just about anyone. just to get it out. don't do that, big mistake. people will either help you with your weakness or turn the table and play it right back at your face. But opening up to your parent, a close friend, a therapist really really helps. someone that doesn't judge you. and after my big break down where I just told every bad thing that happen to me, after that, man i could breath. a weight from my shoulder was being lifted. and that was the day my life started again. for real. without that mini devil on my left shoulder. and i can honestly tell you that i haven't been this happy before my little "break down" as i like to call it. sometimes you just have to look your fear in the eye and tell her/him "im better than you"
and while writing this. i realize something. something important. you might have all the help in the world, but it is up to you to use it.
Go out there and face the world. find out what you like to do and what you are good at and start doing it. start realizing what good of a person you are. you will surprise yourself with the positive feeling you will start to feel when you start to put some value in yourself. and don't you ever dare think the thought "i don't deserve this happiness" because that is your weakness talking. hear your confidence, and hear it loud. something my mother always used to tell me was "when you start to like yourself and respect yourself others will do it to. it's all about what you think of yourself, because people can sniff other people's weaknesses from miles away" and o'boy isn't that true.

know that you can ALWAYS contact me if you wan't to talk,

 I will always be there for you if you are going through a tough time.

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forever and always
xoxo Lihini

I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DID IT!
I FINISHED 50 BOOKS ONE DAY BEFORE NEW YEARS EVE (yesterday that is)!
I have no idea, literary  no idea what to say, i did not expect this day to come, not this year no. i had given up. i made myself believe that i would not be able to do it. but this morning i thought, you know what, im doing this to all the things that wen't wrong in my life, for all the times i was dragged, pushed and stomped down this year. this year might have started off at a bad place, and only became worse with time until recently  but this, this achievement is like a bi "suck it" butt kick to my life this past years. if i wan't something. you bet i will fight for it.

happy new year fellas!!

xoxo Lihini