Until we meet again - Good bye

Hello loves.
I would like to wish you all a very merry Christmas and a happy Hanukkah. Many of you are probably on winter-break, and we all know what that break is filled with - books. And more books.

I've probably told you guys this before but I want to talk about it again.

I - as many other people, read to escape reality. I'll read anything fictional. We all have problems and we cope with them in our own way. Books became my favorite home. I could be in the book world for hours, without feeling like I was missing out on my "real life".

My passion grew in to a blog - because I wanted to share my love and find others who loved books as much as me.

And then it just grew. I've told you about it before. Bottom line - I'm very grateful for everything TeenBookaLover has given me. I started with a name. A blogpost. And look at us now. me and my blog. My little baby. Not so little anymore. This blog is my proudest creation. I will never create something as perfect as TeenBookaLover. This blog have grown into something too big for even me to handle. I don't even know if it's a part of me anymore.
I feel pressured to write these days, to review, to host events, to attend events, drink champagne with strangers, to live a life I didn't even decide for me. I kind of miss the times I had to BUY my own books. The times when I was just a normal fangirl. A book nerd.

I'm not saying that wish it all undone, not at all. I've learned a lot the book industry, I've met some pretty amazing people and I've never been limited in my reading. The opposite. I was given room to bloom.

But I didn't do this to be able to call myself "one of Sweden's biggest book bloggers" or "Swedens youngest August prize ambassador". I didn't do it for all the cool partnerships. I didn't even know that big book bloggers got all their books for free - until I became one.

I did it because I love to read books. And I'm good at reading. And then I became good at reviewing.

When I'm passionate about something I put down every single ounce of my energy on the work. I drain myself - and at the end of the day I've created something too bright for even me to look at. It's a gift and a curse.

And with that said - it's time for me to say good bye to all of you guys - while I'm at the top. While I still got things under control. These 2 ½ years with you readers have been very unique to me. Never have I met so nice and warm people as you guys. We share a bond I will miss with my whole heart. You've helped me through my hardest times in life. You've always been there for me, and I hope I've helped you in any way with my reviews and book posts. You are my friends. Never forget that. I regret letting the glamour take me away from my reading, but I never regret meeting all of you. Never.

I'm done with hiding from my reality. It's actually pretty amazing at the moment. I have some great friends, family that loves me, school is going somewhat good, I'm not as mentally sick as I used to be, I think I might have a crush on a guy but most importantly - i'm happy. I'm ready to live. I'm ready to start loving myself. I will never stop creating beautiful things, for that's in my nature.
I'm only 18. I think it's time for me to explore other aspects of me - and life.

Until we meet again - Good bye.

~ Yours truly
xoxo Lihini.


Opposition (Lux #5) REVIEW

Opposition (Lux, #5)By Jennifer L. Armentrout
Pages: 534
Publisher: Entangled Teen

Katy knows the world changed the night the Luxen came.

She can't believe Daemon welcomed his race or stood by as his kind threatened to obliterate every last human and hybrid on Earth. But the lines between good and bad have blurred, and love has become an emotion that could destroy her—could destroy them all.

Daemon will do anything to save those he loves, even if it means betrayal.

They must team with an unlikely enemy if there is any chance of surviving the invasion. But when it quickly becomes impossible to tell friend from foe, and the world is crumbling around them, they may lose everything— even what they cherish most—to ensure the survival of their friends…and mankind.

War has come to Earth. And no matter the outcome, the future will never be the same for those left standing.

I expected more. The language was too colloquial for my taste. Armentrout have a way of writing that is very laid back but this was too laid back for my taste. 

The story wasn't as climaxed as I that hoped it would be. I don't know why Armentrout held back, this is after all the last book in the series; she should have given it all.