TAG: letting go

saying good bye for the last time and hello for the first time is the hardest thing.
I personally have troubles saying bye.
I don't like to say bye, knowing that you might never ever see this person again, you have shared moment's with this person and to never be able to see this person again.. it hurts.
Graduation is a moment like that. when we finish 9th grade in Sweden we have to choose new school's and i choose one far away, so i knew i wouldn't see a lot of the people i had been growing up with. I didn't have the best childhood, but i knew i would miss them anyway. old friends that I didn't speak with anymore i at least saw everyday at school, but now... all gone. a lot of tears in the car lol.

I think it's because we are all so afraid of letting go, we think we are not ready for what is waiting for us. we wan't to hold on to the things we know.
Humans are so afraid of what we don't know. we are so fixed with knowing everything, we always wan't to know the consequences of our choices.

people say life is a cycle. we are born, die, born, die etc.
But i don't believe that. we don't know what will happen when we die. all we know is that we will die eventually.

how are we supposed to live if we are not ready to make sacrifices? without taking chances?
we don't know what is going to happen after we die but no one really tries to not die.

sometimes letting go is exactly what we need to grow as a person, like in high school, you can't be in high school for the rest of your life, because we wouldn't grow as individuals then. it's hard but it's healthy.

breaking up can be extremely hard to. sharing your personal life with someone is something we do out of trust, but knowing that that person one day will be gone from your life, without being able to delete all the secret's you have ever told that person? it's like they have a piece of you that you can never get back. but that is a part of letting go to. it's in the past and it should stay there. we should be happy, that we had someone back then to trust. and look forward to see who will enter your life next.

what i do when i have to let go of something is that i write about it. sometimes it's just poetry stuff, but sometimes it can become a novel. my head get cleared out and when i have it in front of me i see why i have to let go. it's hard, but in the end it's worth it.

xoxo Lihini